Sorry there won't be any pictures with tonight's posting. To be honest I wasn't even sure I was going to post anything at all. It's funny in a morbid way though, I have not been posting much on purpose and then the reason why I haven't been posting was posted in another blog, Eithene's, a little bit ago...If you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all. It's something my mother used to tell me all the time. And yes, I mean all the time 'cause lord knows I had a mouth on me! It seems that there is a universal feeling of helplessness going around right now.
You know I like to mix up the good vs. bad news and which one I deliver first so here goes the good news tonight, the one that makes me breathe a sigh of relief, Noelani is recovered =) She went back to school on Friday and aside from a small cough she's golden. It was a very tough 4 days with the fevers but she pulled through it and no one *knock on wood* has shown any signs of contracting H1N1.
This is going to be short and sour. We are still having many problems with Alana's g-tube not working. We are only getting in about 4 ounces of water and her meds. On top of that she started coughing really bad over the weekend and was generally not feeling well. We tried to come up with a better plan on the g-tube and keeping her hydrated but nothing seems to be working. Today she needed to go into see McDr (on McDr's day off none the less) and the hope was that it was a small viral infection, the catch term of the decade, possibly in her sinuses. While this didn't account for why she was needing her O2 turned up it was a start. From there it was decided to do a sinus, chest, and abdominal x-ray.
I don't have a lot to say at this point for a few reasons, 1 is stated above, 2 my head hurts, and 3...please see #1 again.
Alana has a sinus infection, ear infection, walking pneumonia, and here's the kicker...her GI system is STILL completely backed up.
I promise to post more in the next day or so. I know that I left some of you hanging but I just am having a hard time dealing with these issues. I feel like I am failing her. Now see, this is where I have to stop because the self-doubt and pity party will get out of control and there's no helping it.
Till next time
1 comment:
Ugh- hang in there Jess! You know I truly sympathize :( That certainly is a lot of infection for one little girl- and I hope that they can get the colon cleaned out... not sure what you've tried, but it might be time to push for the next step. :(
as for "failing her", I know the feeling, BUT when it comes to the plan for ours children's health, it is not, never was, and never will be in our mortal control. We get choose how to help them cope and help each other stay sane- we don't get to choose whether their bodies function or whether a treatment works. TOugh, but true, and I know you know this. Its that mommy aspect that makes it so hard!
And good for you for holding your tongue on those "I'm gonna kill something" days - your mom must be proud ;)
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