So where’d we leave off? Alana just did her first hospital stay and had her first surgery. We are at almost at 2 years of life for her. She’s such a trooper though. Through all this she’s still smiling, playing, and bringing joy to our family. She’s keeping not only Larry and I busy but her sister’s as well. They think she’s the doll-child and always want to hold her and play with her. Noelani and Shaylin are sometimes left out in this equations that is Alana. They are so good and understanding that it’s easy to forget that they are gong through this too. That they are seeing what she’s having done. Seeing the missed trips to the park because Alana isn’t well enough or the dinner out because she’s coughing so badly. The girls have so much compassion and strength in them that they make Larry and I look weak.
After Alana has healed from her surgery we hope and pray that this is going to be the thing that makes it alright. Having the tubes in will help with the ear infections and having her adenoids out will help with the coughing and swelling she’s having around her nose. It’s been almost 2 years now and it’s about time that she had a break from feeling cruddy you’d think. We did dream, and we did hope, and we did pray. The ear infections were cut in half! She was still having them and she still does but they are nothing like how they were. It was so nice to not have her on antibiotics for ear infections finally. And yes, on that note, her cough did not go away. We were still so very happy that at least one thing seemed to be moved outta the picture that maybe with time her cough would go away. It just needed more time to adjust to the new structure of her face right? So yea, the cough goes on and we go on and the world keeps moving around. She’s still in the doctors a ridiculous amount of time and we are still debating the use of antibiotics to try and clear what is a sinus infection? Cold? Flu ? Bad luck?
By July of 2006 she’s been sick again for months. Coughing, fevers, dehydration. Her CRP level keeps going up and they are not sure what to do about her. She’s now about 30 months old and has spent so much time sick. It isn’t long and she’s admitted yet again. Same diagnosis. Pneumonia. I remember being so upset that I could barley talk one night. Larry and I are fighting because things are not going well. Who do you take the most out of when things are not going well? Yea, your spouse or other significant person in your life. I was so very angry with the doctor at this point that I couldn’t see straight. This would be the last time this pediatrician was involved in Alana’s care. We were told that okay, now we can see that maybe this might not be normal even for a sicker kid who might just be unlucky and “catch” everything. We now say no, we want to see Dr. Demain now. This is it there is something wrong here and it’s not at all normal.
Dr. Demain comes in and sits beside her bed and tells us that now we are moving into a new area. It’s not just little tests anymore and the things they are looking at are dig deal immune problems. Okay we tell him. Better to know and deal with it than to not know what to expect at all. He then gets the ball rolling by giving her an adult dose of the Pneumococcal vaccination in her thigh. He tells us that the reasoning for this is that if her body does what it’s supposed to do then we will see redness and inflammation around the injection site. That means that her body is reacting to the shot/dose and there’s a sign that her body is indeed fighting foreign things.
So what has proven to be a consistent in Alanas life happened. It came back as a normal reaction. She did have a boat load of labs done at the same time and those came back normal for the most part with only a few things slightly eyebrow raising but nothing worrisome. T&B cell panel all within normal range, neutrophil oxidative burst: normal, 23 serotype S. Pneumoniae IgG: detectable but low, etc. etc.
This time they feel it would be beneficial for her to see the Infectious Disease doctor as well. He was a very nice man and I’ll give it to him that he tried. He ran a few tests and asked us a lot of questions about her and her past. He was very kind and told us that he would be grasping at straws to fit her into anything that he’d be able to help with. So again, we do our time and she improves. We try to remember that it’s not over this time and we are not taking any more of this “She’s just sicker than other kids” crap. We are now on the search for a new pediatrician on top of all the other things that we are trying to sort through.
Time goes on and she’s having good days and bad days. We are still seeing Dr. P. the ENT, and he’s trying to help us with her and come up with things that may help. She’s still not sleeping through the night and she snores on top of that. Given the size that her adenoids were we start talking about maybe taking her tonsils out. There is a relation to the size of one’s adenoids and their tonsils it seems so hey, maybe this route will at least work to help with the sleeping issue. If she could sleep through the night then maybe she will feel better and be able to stay a bit healthier in the long run.
October of 2006 she has just turned 3 years old! She’s a bright little bugger & is so used to seeing different doctors that at this point she’s calling them her “friends”. There were so many little things in the in-between that I’ve failed to mention. At 9 months of age she stopped growing. Just stopped growing and we were not sure why. She's not added failure to thrive to her list of "things" going on with her. Her bowel problems had remained consistent so there wasn’t any flair up in that area. She was just being how she’d been in the past. This went on until she was 18 months old (right before she went into the hospital). During that time we saw an Endocrinologist to see if there was anything in that realm that would account for what was going on with her. She, the Endo., ran tests for a few things like Turners syndrome & other genetic disorders, bone scan to check just that, her bone growth, and then a few other random things. Through all this Alana is just hanging tough. She’s sick for months at a time then better for a few weeks or even a month. I think she went 3 months without a cough or fever one time!! Through all this I think there was two different trains of though not only with the doctors but with our family.
They included:
1. She will outgrow this. You hear about kids all the time who have strange things going on with them and then one day *poof* they are better. No reason for them to be sick is ever found but keep the faith and in time she will show you that it’s going to go away.
2. That this isn’t a fluke thing. That this is the way that she is and wishing and hoping it away isn’t going to make it go away. Sitting back and just waiting for her to get sick again and then dealing with it isn’t an option.
3. And my personal favorite that we still hear off and on to this day "Well, she doesn't look sick to me."
As you can guess there were a lot of emotions running around by now. Every one of them was spoken with love and caring with no harm intended. It’s hard though when you are the one running to and fro for appointments. You are the one who’s always hearing that not only can they not fix it but they can’t even tell you what the bloody hell “it” is. No matter how strong your spirit and resolve are those things get hard and you can feel so lonely. Not lonely like alone in the wilderness but alone like you are screaming and people are just walking by, they can see you but it’s as if you are mute. That what you are saying isn’t important enough for them to take notice until it’s too late.
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